Monday, May 30, 2011

eulogy to ME.

For five years, my summer starts and ends with a trip to Maine, this year marks the death of that tradition.  There are many places and sites of which I will no longer visit nor see and will sorely miss.  Through a pictorial, I want to pay homage to a place that I've endeared myself and will file away as part of my history.

the view that awaits and greets every time
the many walks in the woods


looking at kezar atop sabattus
kezar lake integral to every visit but i still swim like a rock

kezar lake with glorious colors

mt. washington in the back from one of many memorable hikes

closer view of mt.wash with snow

scat, closest ever to elusive moose sighting

moose tracks in snow covered trail

developed a liking to the quintessential soft-drink;
good name for my dog if i should adopt one

trip commences with ogunquit beach
 A slim portrayal of the vistas and limited selection of the places that was a usual part of the agenda. Thank you Maine for all the fond memories!

The paradoxical truth, the best and worst thing about life is change.  With every "death", there are new beginnings.  Hope and fear can paralyze, but also mobilize and motivate.  I hate feeling like I'm holding on to "emotions"  beyond it's natural span of life.  My feelings are ever evolving though.  I'm starting to feel like I can denounce the anger and resentment.  I may not be able to control how I feel, but can control what I do with how I feel.  Disowning this negativity will not allow it to rule me or my actions.  The "sadness" exists and probably always will, but I can choose to be optimistic! 


  1. Dear "calming",

    I loved reading your beautiful tribute to your memories of Maine and viewing your wonderful pictures. Maine holds a very special place in my heart as well - especially the idyllic and picturesque Kezar Lake (my favorite spot on earth!).

    As someone who has also been struggling with major setbacks in her life, your writing has struck a profound chord with me. I know how much my visits to Kezar always seem to help restore my soul and give me renewed hope. I'm sorry to hear that you won't be continuing your regular visits to Maine. I'd love to be able to talk with you more about your situation and see if there is anything I might be able to do to help in some way.

    Thanks again for sharing so eloquently your thoughts and feelings (and photos!!) with the rest of us.

    Best wishes, Susie

    1. Hi Susie,
      I'm not positive that you will be notified of my "reply" and read this, but still, I just want to say Thank You for your beautiful comment. I am truly touched that my words resonate with you. Kezar is a special place. My most recent visit to Lake Como (Italy) reminds me of it. The timing of your comment was especially nostalgic, as this time two years ago, was my last visit. I've learned to never say "never". It may be under very different circumstances, but perhaps as slim as it may, i might find myself in that neck of the woods in the future. Starting a new chapter in my life... May you continue to be inspired and always abound with hope. All the best to you!