Sunday, September 15, 2013

first impressions

"It is a truth" I'd personally acknowledged that Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen is one of my favorite books.  This year marked it's 200th anniversary.  Though there were many classics part of the English lit curriculum back in the days, this one was not one of them.  A genuine belief in everything in it's due time, this very belated post to my chagrin, I discovered and fell in love with this book as an adult.  So quite naturally, I knew that I wanted to pay homage to Austen for the group show piece for BOS 2013 (back in April).  The brainstorm translated to gathering the materials, some sketching, making of certain components, and a visualization of how the complete piece will be executed.
the general visualization


the "page"

model of the "book" component (closed)

book open
components done

close up to inkwell and quill clasp

displayed on shadow box
The link components of the chain is the following quote:
"A person may be proud without being vain.  Pride relates more to our opinion of ourselves, vanity to what we would have others think of us." -Jane Austen

The original working title of the book was First Impressions.  I am not above the fallacious character of certain individuals, my first impressions have been proven wrong. I have allowed my pride, in more than one occasion, holding on to an impossible ideal only to implicate myself in an unhealthy emotional turmoil.  It is only through an acceptance, and the healing of a bruised ego, did I find the balance to be humbled by vanity.


Friday, March 8, 2013

blessed

February has been a month associated with some of the best and worst moments and memories, but not this year.  I believe in the sanctity of this daily reminder, my calendar at work:
BELIEVE everything happens for a reason
Early in the month was filled with festivities of the Lunar New Year.
towers of fruits of plenty, and Tray of Togetherness
lucky money
the offerings

lions


Chinatown

Aside from the shower of gifts later in the month, most importantly I am reminded of the love and the wonderful people surrounding me.  There was a running theme.


even the cards more or less agreed
Only a fraction of the loot, too numerous to chronicle.
this doesn't fit floral theme, but very "sweet" of a special 9 year old

A steady stream of calla lilies from a friend awaited at my door for almost two weeks.  On the fourth try, the order was finally fulfilled correctly.
calla haven, 35 total stems

abundance of white callas



March is the month that says:

This was a gift from my sister from her last trip to Hong Kong, it has since been hanging on my wall.
It is a scroll of the Chinese character for "blessed" in various calligraphic styles.  Though I may not be religious, she is a Christian and the columns to the right are bible verses.  I can't read it, but appreciate it as a piece of art.

All of this to convey, how truly BLESSED I am.
"blessed" in relief and recessed

Despite the gentle reminder of our vulnerabilities,  to have "health" is bliss and blessed.

Friday, February 1, 2013

newish year, new chapter

A new year is upon us again, only 11 months left.  For the last couple of years, the dawn of this time of year couldn't come quicker because the new year is symbolic of a new start.  Time is absolutely telling and healing.  I knew this, but never more affirming than living through it.  Whether I am prepared or not, it always seems to fly by.  This time, this year, FINALLY, I am grateful that I no longer have to confront the same intense toxic emotions.  Of course,  it is too bad for incidental encounters as local establishments are to have such unfortunate staff.  But, that is beyond my control.

One of the most rewarding experiences this summer was the three weeks spent in one of my most favorite and beautiful countries, Italy.  More than 7000 images was not enough to capture the enormity and the most magical of places.  The sheer volume of pictures are overwhelming, even now the task of choosing a few representative photos are too daunting.  I have modest mini paintings in pastel, my first attempt ever at painting anything.  The first week of the trip was spent in a villa in Umbria, workshop with Linda Richichi, an amazing pastel artist, and photography with Mary Ann Glass.
dusk at the Villa
The pastel paintings were meant to be five minute quick sketches as they were done plein air, value studies for bigger paintings later if one should feel so inclined.  Except, I can't work fast and large scale is intimidating.  In my case, these were "multiple hour mini paintings".  All are 2.5" x 3.5", except the two bigger next to mini is 4" x 6".
view from Villa, this mini study is my favorite

top right was my first one at the Villa.  The other two are at a sunflower field close by
 (the gray blobs are supposed to be olive trees)

this photo is a better visual 
this was where we were situated for painting session

another view from Villa

more from the Villa, the bottom was the sky, mostly fudged,
but i'm sure at some point at dusk that evening, it was close
these are the photos to prove it

this one was just as the sun was setting
this was my only quick sketch of the Villa on the day of arrival

these two are at Borghese Gardens in Rome

these are in Menaggio on Lake Como

this was the inspirational view

one more

another
There are infinite images, some more of which may make it's way over for.  For now, this glimpse is enough.

these I purchased from the master, Linda Richichi
one can see why I hardly qualify as "student"

I approached this trip with an open mind and I wanted the opportunity to have real time away from my environment.  As for personal insight, I don't know that there will ever be "absolute clarity", as there is rarely anything so definitive, but I returned with the notion and the ability to feel that I can start a new chapter in my life.

There were a lot of knitting UFOs' for the holidays.  As always, I reprimand myself for not starting my crafty projects earlier.  But I managed to squeeze in a couple of enameled ornaments.  So, next year this year when I vow to start earlier, more may be made.
mitten

stocking, there were a whole lot personalized

"family tree" for my sisters


The tradition of making and decorating Christmas cookies prevails.  Of course, this year there was an enthusiastic recruit.

niece so proud of her decorated by self snowman

Gratitude, that is prominent on my mind.  I am grateful for the persistent family and friends, for the new friends,  stronger bonds, new experiences,  and for the personal growth.  Life is a collection of changes, and they are not always bad.  As long as I can validate with my own standards that this "change" has meaning to my sense of reality, then I can't go wrong.

Thursday, June 28, 2012

ciao italia!

Somehow, somewhere, some people, "conspired" to have this happen...




Made these for a few people of whom I will share this adventure...  experience of which I would have everything to gain.
I hoped for this time away to give me much insight and "clarity".  What I learn instead is to sometimes expect the unexpected, great things happen when you least expect, and are sometimes unplanned.  I go with an open mind, and allow this experience to actualize to what it's all meant to be...

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

memoriam

There are rare individuals we meet, a connection and bond is formed, seemingly unlikely and inexplicable in certain ways, but makes an impression despite time and distance.  One such person is someone I met some years ago, pretty far in distance, mountain time zone, most beautiful and loving soul, empathic, compassionate wife, doting mother of some very lucky boys, and a "rainbow" little girl.  She is a woman with strong convictions, but never forceful, only respectful.  She has such an understanding of the human psyche, highly intellectual, and the most beautiful writer, with much honesty and truth, much prose, and a way with words that is so touching.  I can't relate to her tremendous losses, but I find comfort by the power of her words, her truth.  I feel the intensity of her words, her heart.   We were only in each other's company for about two weeks, and I have lost the bond connecting me to the periodic and personal updates.  It is only through social media, of which I rarely partake, that I am kept abreast of her happenings.  She may not know it, but is a person I draw strength.

My intentions were to have the "gifts" in her possession by Earth Day, because I know the significance of that day to her.  But, the procrastinator in me said by Mother's Day which turned into Memorial Day, because it would mean remembering two special souls, then into as soon as I can is better than not at all.  Nonetheless, they are finished, and shall soon be sent.
"un" dressed bunny, by Barbara Prime

well-dressed bunny with her "rainbow" pinafore

back, gathered a crocheted chain for the tail

watching over

two special souls

Though she will receive these momentos a little later than I had hoped, the sentiments are most sincere.  I hope Ali V likes her bunny, and a key ring for her mom to keep close...  If I should ever to be in that role, I only hope to be a fraction of the "mom" that she is!